All of us have thousands of wishes. To be thinner, to be bigger, have more money, have a cool car, a day off, a new phone, to date the person of your dreams. A cancer patient only has one wish, to kick cancer's ass. I know that 97% of you won't post this as your status, but my friends will be the 3% that do. In honor of someone who died, or is fighting cancer, or even had cancer, post this for at least one hour.


This is for my Mom who is currently fighting cancer. We LOVE you MAMA!  

Part One. Denial and Acceptance

             Hmmm.. What should I write about? I've been staring at the monitor for almost 5mins now and still don't have anything to write.. Oh! I got it. I said in my previous post that i'll write about what happened to my Mama.. So here it goes..

             

             For more than 6months now.. My mother has been fighting cancer. Yes, you heard me right. Its Cancer. It started around the end of August  2010. She had vaginal spotting which later lead to profuse bleeding. I could still remember how it transpired. It was a Monday morning. My Kuya woke me up and told me that Mama was on the phone and wanted to talk to me. I remember that I was still half-asleep when I talked to her. Then Mama said that she was bleeding, really bad. I suddenly felt adrenaline rushing through my veins  & feels like I just finished working out. I was that hyper. After that phone call, I immediately told my Kuya what happened. It went by so fast that I forgot to eat breakfast. I got my mom's clothes had a bath then off to her office (my Mama works in a Hospital). When I got there, Mama's officemates we're there. I gave mama her clothes for her to changed. While I was waiting, I chatted with mama's officemates. They told me what happened and how it happened. After that, we had a quick lunch and went straight to the hospital beside the hospital she's working in. She had an Trans-vaginal Ultrasound that afternoon which was ordered by her OB doctor. The next day, mama decided to change doctors. I must say it was a good thing she did. We rushed to the hospital to get her ultrasound result then to the her new doctor's clinic. Thankfully we made it in time. Her new doctor gave her a medicine to stop the bleeding. She'll have to drink it for a month. 

            Then after a month, It was the end of September. Mama was still bleeding. The drug wasn't able to stop the bleeding. We went back to the doctor for a follow-up checkup, she ordered mama to have a trans-vaginal ultrasound with contrast done by her the following day.  I wasn't able to accompany mama. After that, the doctor decided that mama should undergo a minor procedure, D&C or Dilatation and Curettage. The doctor saw a hazy part in the ultrasound and cannot determine what it is. Mama was scheduled for D&C last October 5, 2010. Waiting for the result was antagonizing... The following week, It was a Monday. Mama got the result and went to the doctor's clinic with kuya... Then I received a text message from mama.. It was about the result. Mama said she already got the result. "Anak nakuha ko na result. Endometrial endometriod Adenocarcinoma ang result. Ayusin mo na gamit ko. bka admit na ako" At that point, It felt like my world came crashing down. I started crying. I can't believe what just happened. I received another text msg from mama  and said not to tell papa the result. It was hard. Papa was also inside the house. Imagine me acting nothing is wrong in front of him then when I go to the next room, I'd be crying like a baby. It was very painful. After lunch, mama called and told me she's scheduled for TAHBSO on the 15th of October. I was trying so hard not to cry.. before we said goodbye. I said, "I love you Mama.. love you mama" and I started to cry and so did her.. I could remember mama saying, "I love you too, Anak... Kaya ko ito." which made us both cry more.. That was the only time I cried in front of my mama. After that phone call, I started crying again.. I finally told my sister what happened. That afternoon, I received phone calls from my titas. Throughout the calls, I was hysterically crying. They we're calming me down and telling me what to do and what not. I could all hear them crying.. When kuya got home.. He was telling me not to cry and everything will be alright. Its hard not to cry.. Its mama eh. When mama got home.. Papa was downstairs and she told her at that instant.. The mood in the house was very depressing..  I could tell papa was shocked.. He wasn't talking as much at all.. I could hear mama crying every time relatives calls. It also made me cry.. In 4days, she'll undergo a major surgery. Mama was admitted a day before the surgery. For her stay in the hospital. I was the one watching her.. 

               On the day of the surgery, mama was on NPO for more than 10hours or so.. The surgery almost didn't push through due to some reasons but thank God it did. Both kuya and I waited in the room. Oh, I forgot to tell that kuya and mama both worked at the same hospital. My brother is a staff nurse there. The surgery ended around 11:30pm. Kuya's colleagues lets us stay inside the recovery room to be with mama. I didn't got much sleep there.. it was freezing inside the room. The next day, kuya was on morning shift so I was left there to watch mama.. around 10am Ate got to the hospital, so I got the chance to go back to our room and took a nap. Mama was transferred to our room around 12nn. We stayed in the Hospital for 5 more days before mom was discharged..

To Be Continued..

Part Two. Treatment.